I love to love who I love, and when I do, I'm completely enthralled in her, which is dangerous for me, since the ghosts haunt me in everything I see, touch, feel. That is why I take at least a year off from starting over-to be fair to not replacing them... instead, giving myself over to someone new with a fresh heart, healthier but maybe not completely healed. Now I'm hating the idea of each day that goes by wasted, days and nights that could be spent together. I know it's been said, but I'm the type of "gentleman" who will always happily open every door for you, while occasionally slapping you on the ass in the most inappropriate of times ! Because what would be the fun if you didn't quickly turn around and look up at me with a shocked smile-trying not to laugh. Mostly I miss doing some mundane task, like dishes, or folding laundry and having that special someone randomly come up behind me and just wrap their arms around me and rest their head on my back.

Der ideale Mensch für mich I'm a sucker for a woman who can make her eyes smile, and loves life, while behind those eyes are the remnants of pain almost forgotten from maybe a month, a year, or even several that were spent answering every question or thought with "I don't care". To know despair, and have had climbed out of that pit, only to now appreciate how beautiful life can be.